My story

Hello Everyone my name is Anthoney Morris I’m 25 years old. I’m from Cleveland Ohio and live in West Virginia. So you know I have a little bit of Hood and country in me 😅! I’m here to tell you a little about myself an about something serious called depression! I was born to a single mother who had me at 16. So a kid was raising a kid. My mother had gotten with my sibling’s dad when I was 2. He was a very mean drunk. So about the very beginning of my life I started with hardship of seeing my mom get beat and at 4 he started to hit me too. I couldn’t defend myself I couldn’t help my mother. Once she got pregnant when I was 8. He no longer beat her and only beat me. I started to reach out in school to girls and teachers because guys looked as your weak when you breakdown. My mom always took his side and would change schools. I never went to a school more than one year until I was in 7th grade. My mom went as far to tell each school I was a compulsive lair. I felt so broken an alone at such a young age! The start of my depression was being to weak to protect myself, not being able to be a kid and have friends cause your kept at home by a monster! Finally once she left him when I was 12 and we moved to West Virginia! I finally was free but being so young I didn’t know I had anger and depression I had bottled up since I was young! I started playing football it brought me love and friends! But not true happiness cause I didn’t know any better yet. Once I was in high school i started partying being the jock who everyone liked! They called me N word Tony (went to a very white school) but everyone knew my name how crazy I was my little sister still gets told about it! I was hiding my pain in partying truly i was depressed and didn’t wanna be in reality. Once school was over the depression truly came out over time of broken engagements and relapses in drug addictions! I had hit rock bottom so many times broken and depressed wanting to blow my brains out! I felt as no one cared not even my own family. But this wasn’t true but I couldn’t convince myself that it wasn’t! Once I found God he changed my heart. He helped let me know he and others care about me! That I have my purpose on this earth and one of them is to use my story to help change others lives. So to anyone reading this know your not alone. That I know what it feels like to be alone! Know that I care that I will listen if you reach out. Do not take your life don’t pass your pain on to those who care about you! I personally if I heard about your sucide I would hurt even tho I didn’t know you because I would feel I could of did something somehow to reach that person! You have to admit it to someone! You have to try to talk about it some people will laugh maybe but just know ur not alone someone will listen don’t give up! Everyday you get up look yourself in the mirror know you can and will beat this depression! Change you mindset because I promise you that you matter! I was just like you one time ( sometimes I still fall and wanna lay down) you have to get back up and learn from your failures. Maybe your story and you beating your depression is part of your purpose like me! My story has helped save a few of my friends from suicide. So know your hurt actually makes you a strong and impactful person! Don’t lay down and cry about it feeling sorry for yourself! I care about you and I care enough to tell you the same thing I had to tell myself. No body can beat this except you people care and it’s okay to hurt but we can’t live in past and keep feeling sorry searching for pity! I have to win for all the others I could save by telling them how I won and if I someone who came from nothing can win! I know you beautiful kings and queens can do the same! I love you God bless. Please give some feedback if you can I’m practicing motivational speaking for depression.

P.s if your really feeling down please don’t take your life. Give me one chance to speak to you if your that down! You can reach me at anytime text or call 304-460-4995! Idc if it’s 4 am if your that down I don’t need sleep that bad!

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2 thoughts on “My story

  1. Thank-you for sharing. I relate personally, and now after many years of healing, I seem to be attracted to men that have went through rough times and have turned to alcohol so it helps me understand why they didn’t treat me right. I wish I could have helped them, but trying to help them only hurt everyone. I’m glad you’re on the road to a better life and am looking forward to more of your writing.

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